Dear Mama,
On this day after a heated & nasty election campaign, while others
are voicing their opinions verbally and through social media, I am choosing to
honor you and your teachings to me.
Only God can truly judge you; don’t believe everything you
see on TV, read, or hear from 3rd/4th parties; for they
may have an agenda that will derail the path that God has set forth for you to
follow. I am at work today, choosing not to get involved in any of those
debates/conversations, but electing (play on words..lol) to do my job to the
best of my ability today, and hoping that you and dad are proud of your son!
You taught me to speak up if I thought I was being wronged,
but you also let me know not to be ignorant in going about it. If someone has wronged you Mark, do your best
to forgive them and give them a 2nd or 3rd chance if
necessary. If they continue to wrong
you, then don’t be a fool, be done with them, pray for them, and move on. These conversations have gone through my mind
in the past few weeks, as this election thing has wound down. I still hear my father telling me, “they’re
all crooks Mark, never trust a politician” and hearing you say that most of
them are the wolf in sheep’s clothing, but some of them are genuine and worth
listening too.
Anyway enough about that crap, it is what it is, and will be
what it will be.
Nine years ago today, your body left this earth, but your
spirit and your legacy within our family lives on. It lives on through the knowledge & wisdom
that your parents & siblings taught you, and you passed that one to my
brother and I, and I am doing my very best to pass that on to my two
children. There are times when I will
stop to think, “my mother would NOT be happy with me right now” and I
subsequently change my path, because that is the way you raised me. You may not be here for me to call or visit
with anymore, but I can still hear your voice, your wisdom, even some of your scolding’s,
and that’s proof to me that you are still up there looking out for me.
On this day, for the 4th time in the 9 years that
you have been gone, I have gotten into my vehicle and 2Pac’s Dear Mama has been
on the radio! In the past, I’ve chalked
it up to coincidence, but today I could do nothing but breakdown in tears. I turned my Jeep off and took the necessary
time to gather myself before starting it back up and proceeding to make my way
to work. My heart tells me that this was
your sign to me that you are truly watching over us.
I love you, I miss you, and I am so very thankful that God
chose you to be my mother, because in tough times I know that I can always
depend on my mama!!
Pour out some liquor and I reminisce, cause through the
drama
I can always depend on my mama
And when it seems that I'm hopeless
You say the words that can get me back in focus
I can always depend on my mama
And when it seems that I'm hopeless
You say the words that can get me back in focus
When I was sick as a little kid
To keep me happy there's no limit to the things you did
And all my childhood memories
Are full of all the sweet things you did for me
And even though I act crazy
I gotta thank the Lord that you made me
There are no words that can express how I feel
You never kept a secret, always stayed real
And I appreciate, how you raised me
And all the extra love that you gave me…….(2Pac, Dear Mama)
To keep me happy there's no limit to the things you did
And all my childhood memories
Are full of all the sweet things you did for me
And even though I act crazy
I gotta thank the Lord that you made me
There are no words that can express how I feel
You never kept a secret, always stayed real
And I appreciate, how you raised me
And all the extra love that you gave me…….(2Pac, Dear Mama)